Being In Love (again)


     After a hurtful break-up two months ago and a constantly suffering from heart breaking the past one month, I am finally-completely-honestly-truthfully fall in love again with someone. I am so relieved knowing that, even after the most painful thing happened, my heart still can love someone so dearly. And how do you know you're finally in love? When you don't wanna sleep at night cause the reality is finally better than your dreams, when you just can get his face out of your mind, when just by remembering him can light up your whole mood.
     The things about this guy that makes me fall in love are his smile and his eyes. The way his eyes look at me when he is smiling, is something I don't wanna trade for anything. He is awesome simply by the way he is. His mind is wide open, being a well-educated person makes him has that exceptional knowledge inside his beautiful mind, the inquisitive mind that I loved. He talks mannerly without forcing being one. He is also a good guy, a religious good guy. The way he always wanna do 5 times prayer on time, warm my heart. The feeling I have inside my heart about this guy is just wonderful.
     Nope, we are not dating, not even close to be one. We're friends, a best friend for life and will always be that way. Why not dating? Cause I simply don't think I wanna have one in the nearest time. For me right now, relationship is something majestic. You don't meet a new guy, have relationship, break-up, and repeat. I am too mature to play with a thing called relationship. I don't wanna wasted my time for the wrong guy again. And if one day I finally dated someone, it's not because I need someone to make me happy, not because I need a place to lean on, it's straightly cause I need a partner for life. I am in charge of my own happiness, and I don't need a boy just to make me happy. I am not in a hurry to find my partner for life, cause the perfect one need times to be found. I am enjoying myself being in love right now. The kind of feeling I wish I can keep forever when I met my one and only. I am also grateful that I fall in love with you, the good guy I met accidentally.

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