Midnight thoughts

Baru saja… Baru saja rasanya aku merasakan menjadi milikmu Baru saja… Baru saja kurasakan hangatnya dekapmu Baru saja… Baru saja kurasakan kecupmu di dahiku Baru saja… Baru saja senyum ini mengembang karena dirimu Dan, Baru saja pula aku kehilanganmu Secepat itu Sesebentar itu Tapi sesakit ini                                                                                  -Alya

It was small and dark The place I used to live in It was bitter and sorrow The feeling I used to feel It is a little brighter Since the first time you came in It is a little happier The feeling I feel because of you I trusted and I devoted I threw away all my fear I threw away all my doubts I stand still and believe I promise…. I promise to stay Even when everyone is leaving I promise to believe Even when nobody does But I can’t promise you to not falling But I promise to make it safe if you do I ask nothing but, Loyalty and honesty So, please don’t… Don’t disappoint me for choosing you... We both might be afraid Afraid of what is coming But I tried and adamantly give myself to you Before you even asked for it So please don’t.. Just don’t… Broke this and make it a dark and sorrow place again                                 - Alya

                Firstly, I would like to say sorry for not updating this blog for a long longggg time. I was taken away with my busy college life.  Well, I am now a freshman in ITK (Institute Technology of Kalimantan) majoring urban and regional planning. My first term was surprisingly very busy, hectic, and stressing, but well I kinda enjoyed it and now I am enjoying my holiday until the beginning of February.                 2016 tough me a lot. It’s a year that I learned to let go. I let go not only the things I want, I let go of my dreams, I let go of my ex, I let go of my friends, I let most everything I had in 2015 to go in 2016. Letting go doesn’t mean you’re weak. Letting go means you know that you can not always force it the way you want it to be. Letting go means you know that you’ve had enough and you deserved something more. 2016 also tough me that, the one that left will be replace (sooner or later) with the one that come. Even though some people left me, some people al