Heart Breaking Moments and My Prayers
So, I've been being lazy to write lately, that's because of the most heart breaking moments I've been to the past couple weeks. That moments really tearing me apart, I am quite stressful thinking about that. Well, I've been getting rejected three times by universities, by SNMPTN, SBMPTN, and UTUL UGM. I looked like I am okay with everything that is going on around me, but actually that hurts so much seeing all your friends getting success while all you've done is just getting rejected. It hurts seeing your friends getting into the universities that you've wanted so bad for the past couple years. It just.....hurt too bad. I once cried so bad before I went to sleep, the most hurtful thing wasn't getting rejected but knowing that you've disappointed many people around you by getting rejected. One thing that keep me sane so far is the fact that I believe Allah has a better plan for me, much better that snm, sbm and utul thing. Whatever pat